I grew up in a hispanic family. Very prideful family. When i was younger my parents were always out clubbing and what not. My father was abusive and a drunk. His mom wanted to see my parents split up and other people around them wanted the same thing. So it was hard. As I was growing up I had a lot of self esteem issues. Especially since I was born with a lazy eye. I got made fun of because of it. I did whatever i could to get friends. i was VERY dependent on them. Since my family was a wreck i always went to my ‘friends’. I didn’t feel loved by my family so i went to guys for love. I got hurt by them but that never stopped me. I was also a huge conformist. I almost ran away from home but my parents caught me and kept me home. I dealt with drinking too.
I now deal with depression, my worldly desires, and self control. But I am learning to deal with it. He is giving me strength to say No and walk away. :)
God has changed my family. My dad is no longer drinking. My family is happy and we are all following God together. Whenever one of us is down we all help out. God has given me that self worth and strength to avoid a lot of falls. I look back and I see God’s hold on my family. He kept me from doing so many other things by having that grip on my heart. and He kept my family together through it all. He has given me that vision to keep my striving for His goal for me. To speak about His love around the world. He’s shown me that I’m not living for myself. I’m living for Him. I am in awe of Him and what He is doing in my life. He has put a group of people around me that I can lean on for help. A group of friends and leaders that i know will never leave me and will see me through. :)
These are what remind me of what God has for me:
Ezekiel 12:28
Jeremiah 1:6-8
John 17:14
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
Ephesians 6:10-20 ARMOR OF GOD (very important)
Theres so MANY more but I don’t want to over do it…So this is just a snippet of everything… :)
