My attitude towards my family is always really negative. Everyone in my house has always been a Debbie Downer so it’s rubbed off on me. I try to keep my mouth shut and get over the anger but everyone provokes me so much. It’s gotten to the point where my parents flat out tell me that they want me to go to a friend’s house so they don’t have to deal with me anymore. It’s only with my family that I’m this way — others outside of my immediate family don’t get on my nerves as much. I deal with them and can get over my anger but it’s hard to do that. I always feel really bad after I have a fit too. Right now, God has really opened my eyes to how bad I really get. He’s in the back of my mind, telling me to keep my mouth shut and I obey more and more often. It’s a slow process, but it’s getting there.
I try to think of verses like Ecclesiates 7:9, “Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools.” and pretty much all of Ephesians 4:20-32 help me get my head in the game.
