Well, for the past couple years in my life, I’ve struggled with a lot of myself. I moved around a lot. Well, my parents were stationed in Guam for a couple years, then, when we moved, I believed that life was going to be horrible for the rest of the time there. I slowly delved into the internet and started playing this game Maple Story. I know it sounds stupid, but, I then got addicted and well, got into some things that I shouldn’t have. While that was all happening, I was losing trust in my parents that were broken, also. Really, I didn’t care about anything but my game anymore. All my parent’s problems didn’t really get to my head.
I guess when I got caught red handed on the game was when God shook me and said, “Do you know what you’re doing?”. That’s when I turned around. I had become a lot more social, and celebrating life with God. I had some troubles with my parents, though. You see, they drank a lot, and my dad tended to get violent when he was drunk. At least with the things in our house.
I started doubting. Putting trust into reason, perhaps? I guess I had some trouble accepting my parents for who they were and trying to help them. I gave up on ‘em.
I guess since I went to my family retreat a couple weeks ago I was changed. I wanted to help my parents. I was renewed. I was on rocky ground before I came there. I wanted to make God my one and only again. He was always that since last year, but, I think we became closer due to me realizing that I had to respect and love my parents more, no matter how broken they were. I couldn’t fully love God if I didn’t love my parents. Well, anyway, the rest of my past is sort of irrelevant.
The parts of the scripture that have helped me the most / are my favorite are probably Psalm 23 and John 16:33. John 16:33 really has helped me whenever it felt like the world was crashing down on me. It was the last piece of scripture that my aunt gave me before she died, so, I guess you could say it was really important to me.
God loves you guys. God bless. :)
-Kimberly
